God doesn't care about our "eventuallys" He cares about our "today's"

So over the last few days it has been frustrating for me...If you followed me last year then you know I tell the good, bad, and ugly. I told you at the end of my last post that I wanted to take some big steps over the next few days. Well mustangs don't really work on our schedule. Both girls have been really reactive and "mustangy" ever since last weekend and I have had a tough time pulling them back around. Sunday took a great step a few days ago, I got on her again with the halter and she is very light. We are still waiting on the bosal to come in due to the fact that the first one came in and was defective. The last few days I have been fond of Sunday. I seem to have had more luck with her. So in the process of trying to progress her I took her out of the pen with Sable and put her in the barn in Spade's (last years mustang) stall. Spade then has to eat in the ally of the barn since I am full in every pen. It was a great move because it made Sunday start focusing on me instead of everything else. It cause Spade to eat in the ally of the barn where there is more movement around him. It was good for me because I am terrified to walk behind Spade because he kicks so bad. Since this change has happened Spade settled down and will actually let me walk around and behind him as I feed other horses. This has built my confidence in him tremendously. He has really softened over the last few months. After returning last year he kinda did his own thing and I rode him only once after coming back from the challenge. It has taken him a while to come around but he is finally there. I hope to start him on barrels after the Mustang Million.

I am happy with where Sunday is but it has been tough to figure out a plan with out the use of a bridle. On the flip side of things the move wasn't all that great for Sable. She didn't like being by herself at all. She would pace the fence the majority of the day and lost weight quickly over the few days she was in that pen alone. I didn't realize how bad she was until I tried to catch her a few days ago. She ran around like crazy. I was trying to catch her to get her feet done for the first time. As I was moving her around the pen she seemed to not only be avoiding me,  she genuinely seemed fearful. I was at least 60 feet away from her at all times. By the time I realized she was afraid enough to do something outstanding, she had lock her eyes on the 6 ft fence at the pasture side of the pen. She very strategically loped to the fence and jumped. Her feet caught the top foot of the fence and the whole section of panel came crashing down. She landed on her feet on the other side and continued to run out to the 40 acer grazing pasture. I looked at my farrier and calmly told him that she wouldn't be done that day. :) Since she pulled that stunt I knew something had to be done to get her back on track so yesterday I spent and hour with her doing ground work and bathing and grooming her. She seemed to come back to earth after yesterday. This morning I was sitting at the barn in the car and I pulled out my devotional app on my phone. It always seems to have the quick word that I need. This morning it was talking about how we only get what we expect from the Lord. Believe more, you receive more. It was really good I am bummed I don't know how to copy it on here. But as I read it I realized that I had no faith in God for these horses. I guess I assume that God isn't worried about my progress or deadlines. Danial and I were talking the other day about how sometimes people with talent, no matter what it is, have a tendency to rely on that talent instead of allowing God to take control. I asked myself if I can do what I do in my own power how much more can God do. God interrupted me. I felt Him say "Kelli I can only do what you expect me to do. How much do you expect?" Right then I decided that I was going to pull out my very skittish mustang and saddle her at the trailer like a big girl. I expected her to stand and be saddled quietly. It was a little slower then my normal speed, but she did it. So I then thought, I want to teach my lesson off her this morning. This would require me to be in the arena. So I took her to the round pen and moved her around (with a long line...we will not be jumping anymore fences!!) She seemed good so I hoped on. I rode her around at a walk and trot. She was perfect. The circumstances with my student weren't safe to ride her during the lesson so I tied her and saddled another horse. She stood at the trailer until my lesson was over and I put her away. So tonight I felt that she needed a better ride then we had this morning. I went to the barn to do the work for tonight. I grabbed her first. A friend was riding with me tonight so I took the chance to work Sable in the round pen. I hoped on her almost completely cold and tuned up her feel. I made sure she wasn't going to run off with me. Then I was determined to take the step I have been dreading. Riding her in the arena. There I feel like there is no safety if she wanted to buck or run. It is also intimidating to colts. It can be very scary. My friend was on her seasoned horse so I felt safer. Sable surprised me. She turned very curious...she rushed to meet the other horse and she happily followed him around. The things that usually spook most colts, she would approach to investigate. She seemed like she loved the "purpose" of being in the pen. I started showing her some of the movements that we struggled with the last few weeks and she started getting it. She was moving like she had been ridden 10 more times then she has. I realized that I wasn't expecting enough. I was limiting myself, my mustang, and my God. So my challenge to you today is think about the areas in your life that you are limiting God by your lack of faith that things can truly be different. The bible says, Faith of a mustard seed can make mountains move...how many times have you heard that and said "Mountains don't really move?" I know I have. And it is true in the natural. But God can make things that you can't see or things that don't seem possible, very possible. My mountain, today, was very small on the grand scene of things. I limited Him because I assumed God didn't really care. I knew I could get there in my own power, eventually. But God doesn't care about our "eventuallys" He cares about our "today's". He wants you to believe Him for the "right nows". A person can eventually receive healing or they can be healed right now. Your marrige can eventually be restored or it can be restored today. You can eventually become sucsessful or it could be today. Joseph is one of my favorite people of the bible for multiple reasons but one of those reasons is that he proved that God is in the "suddenly business". In 24 hours he went from the prison to the palace. He became second in command in Egypt, and it wasn't even his own country!  I believe that Joseph relied on the Lord and in His promises. He knew from when he was a boy that he would be special and that was his expectation. So it made it easy for God to do amazing things in his life. It is all on what you believe and have faith for. Have faith that God can change your world, big mountain or small.